Trying to focus on the good in my life via /r/gratitude

Hi everyone. I've been in a dark place since losing my parents and a few dear pets. (Plus mental and physical health issues and serious family problems) and I used to have a much better attitude and practiced gratitude every day. I miss it. I miss being the person who was able to appreciate and enjoy life as well as be grateful for all that I had. I liked being that person, and want to find her again. Though it's kind of hard tonight I want to make a gratitude list:

Having meds for my depression and ADD, having a roof over my head, my two cats laying in bed with me now (they both have health issues but are still here thank God), my friend and I getting back in touch after many years, my ex husband and I being best friends and getting along well, being surrounded by nature every day, strangers who have helped me and/or being kind to me this year, having programs like Al-Anon and OA to help me, finding a new therapist after not having one for years, finding a new med doctor, going no contact with certain family members for my sanity, having EBT and Meals on Wheels while being very low income, feeling cared for by my HP, dreaming of my late parents often and feeling them visit, meeting people online who are kind and helpful esp when the opposite is often the norm, having heat right now after not having it at all last winter, indoor plumbing, people who have given me rides since I had to sell my car last June, feeling like people like me as I am after an unhealthy lifetime of being treated badly by certain family members.