Grateful for VA therapist via /r/gratitude

I had a lovely VA trauma therapist for a year and disclosed some heavy shit that I experienced throughout my 53 years of life. I had to blindly trust her and formed a strong therapeutic relationship. I had to move on to a different therapist in the community and now I am working through so much grief. I am discovering that it’s hard because I feel love for that VA therapist (let’s call it platonic love). She had some shortfalls and limitations and I even disagreed with her read on me at times. Love (even platonic love) is hard to walk away from. It truly sucks. But had I not gone to see her in the first place, I would still be filled with all of the trauma and fear. Now I’m just filled with unbearable fucking love. ❤️