Grateful for enjoying music again after 5+ years in silence!! via /r/gratitude

I spent over 20 years with a musician. His entire family played an instrument, all types. He was in a band and always had a guitar in his lap. Music was the center of everything we did, it was a beautiful way to live. However, after we broke up music kind of became something I avoided. It seemed like every song on the radio would trigger some memory and that would lead to me spiraling down a dark path of self loathing. He wrote me a few songs that have consistently stayed stuck in my head which really tugs at the heart strings. So for the past five years Ive stayed away from music. Every now and again I’d try to find some new songs to enjoy but the lyrics would always cause my to think of my past. So I’ve spent a lot of time in silence and although it’s been a good way for me to understand the nature of my mind and it’s definitely helped me grow as a person, I missed that good feeling I used to get from music. Yesterday I stumbled across a playlist that is mostly instrumental music, some symphony type stuff and I instantly fell in love with it!!! I got shivers and cried tears of joy because I was able to listen to this without it sparking any bad feelings!! I felt free!! I was smiling ear to ear and bopping my head and really just enveloped with all good vibes! It’s hard to describe!! I never would have imagined I’d be a fan of orchestra music and instrumental songs. So so so happy!!! If any of y’all have any instrumental favorites you can recommend please please please do so, I’d be forever grateful!!