Grateful for healing via /r/gratitude

Witnessing the body’s ability to heal is remarkable. I got my tooth pulled last Monday and watching the wound heal inside my mouth over the past few days has opened up my eyes to all of the other kinds of healing my body does for me. I tried a renewal ritual yesterday to complete my transformation from my old self into my new me and I woke up feeling more complete this morning. I set the old me free, thanked her for what she taught me and forgave her for the mistakes she made, waved goodbye and set her free. I was also finally able to throw away the last of the things that I had hung onto from my past, knowing there was no reason to hang onto them anymore. All they did was weight me down. It was strange to feel my mind throughout the rest of the day try to pull me into feeling like I needed to go back into the trash and get those things out because tossing them would definitely make my ex really mad. After more than 5 years away from him I’m still reflexively afraid to make him angry. Seeing this shift in my mind kind of helped me see that everything wasn’t my fault. I feel like less of a villain now.