Grateful my husband won’t leave me behind via /r/gratitude

Today we’re going on a trip for the Fourth of July. So we’ll be driving a little over 3 hours away.

When I was with my ex he would leave when he was ready to leave. He refused to wait for me. So I’ve been left behind when we had plans to go on a vacation before. It was not a good feeling. For context, we never took planes, trains, or buses when we’d go on trips. Just driving the car.

Over the years I got used to this and would just get up way before he did in order to get everything I needed for me and our kids together by the time he woke up. That would ensure I was ready to go.

I’m grateful I don’t have to accept that feeling of anxiety anymore now. I still have it. But I can reassure my mind that my husband is completely fine with waiting for me if he needs to.

It’s so different than what I’m used to. Even after 5 years of being away from my ex. I guess 20+ years of that ended up taking a toll on me. But it’s all washing away. I woke up today with the anxiety of “ hurry up!!” And have been redirecting that to be the energy of “we get to go on vacation!!” Happy they’re vacation vibes in place of trip anxiety.