I’m grateful that some part of me doesn’t want to give up via /r/gratitude

(Note: I'm trying my best. I hope all of you don't mind me. I'm sorry)

In short, when depression kicks in, all that I can feel or think of is hopelessness. I'm not sure if I will break free from this state or at least have a little improvement from my current state, but I believe everything happens for a reason and lessons are better learned when it's from your own experience.

Frankly, it's been hard for me to communicate or be around people. I even visibly look stressed and overwhelmed when I physically talk to people that I hate myself for unable to live normally as I was back then. Yet, I'm grateful that at least I have myself for me. I'm grateful that I'm here for me.