Partner Gratitude via /r/gratitude

Everyday with my incredible partner is such a gift and I dont have anyone else really to share it with. I feel like i'm bragging it in if I try to share it with people in my life. It has been a decade and this man is so kind, so present, so supportive that I can hardly believe he is real.

I grew up without support in a reality that was so dark and scary with people that I knew didn't care or that I was a burden on. My husband however does not even register me as anything but his loving partner. Through depression, my current cancer scare, the Lyme disease I am fighting, the fluid that keeps building up pn my heart, and my recent surgery of stage 4 endometriosis. He does not even blink. He is kind, gracious, caring, so supportive, steadfast, and I just need someone to know. I told him, as I'm trying to get working despite all the shit, that a part of me thinks that I should be punishing myself for not working. He said that is bull shit and the best think I could do is live and find all the joy possible. As long as I am kind, present, and faithful there is no wrong in his eyes. How did I ever find such a love. I am beyond blessed.