Grateful for God’s grace and mercy. via /r/gratitude

God allowed me to fall on my face this year and I DESERVED IT!

Back in May, I made a hasty decision to move out of my mom’s house after resentment started to build in my heart toward my family. I was acting purely out of emotion and allowed the enemy to fill my mind with lies that weren’t true.

Not long after, I was approved for a bank loan, another poor decision on my part. It was meant to be used for bills and household needs, but instead, I wasted it on unnecessary things. Now struggling to pay it off.

In June, I found out I was pregnant. I made the heartbreaking decision to have an abortion, knowing it wasn’t something God approves of. I ended up being rushed to the ER due to complications from the pills.

By the end of June, I made yet another impulsive decision. I quit my job out of frustration. Instead of being patient and trusting God to open the right door in His timing, I tried to take control. A month later, I was unexpectedly fired from the new job I rushed into.

I lost everything. I fell deep into debt and had no choice but to move back in with my family. The only thing I still had was my car and that was only because I was able to defer the payments. I have been through sooo much this year like this not even half of it.

But through it all, God opened my eyes. He’s been revealing the areas in my heart that need healing and growth. He’s teaching me to consult with him first before I make any decision. Despite all my mistakes, His love and mercy never left me. I was on a path of destruction, but God is using it all to rebuild me.