Dreams via /r/gratitude

I’m grateful for the dreams I had last night because they showed me that I don’t feel the pain of missing them anymore. That hollow, ball of ache in the middle of my chest that would take my breath away every time I thought about them is gone. My dream was a memory type dream where they were leaving and I couldn’t reach them to say goodbye and I braced for that punch in the chest feeling and it wasn’t there anymore. I got so used to feeling it I didn’t even really realize that it’s gone until I woke up from my dream. I felt that feeling for most of my life, more than 20 years of that achy ball on my heart and now it’s all gone! It’s kind of bittersweet because I know now that they’re truly gone, never coming back and I think I held onto that feeling as a way of keeping myself hopeful that we’d be reunited someday. I’m letting them go now. I don’t have room in my heart for that ache anymore. I’m ready to move on now with full acceptance that my future will not include them. More morning tears. More Cleansing. I’m awakening to a new me more and more each day.