Grateful for how far Ive come via /r/gratitude

I found a journal entry from a long time ago and it put things into a deeper perspective of just how far Ive come since my life fell apart (that’s how it felt at the time) I wanted to share it with y’all in case anyone else is struggling with a break up and feeling like things will never be good again if you have to live without them. I’m doing better than I’ve ever done at the point in my life. I can listen to this song and let myself feel the sadness and then move through the sadness so much quicker now. I’m really thankful that he told me to run. I hope he knows he did the right thing in sending me away. Here’s the entry – Tuesday, 15 Feb 2022 03:35 AM

Snuff by Slipknot takes me back to aunt ann's house on 24th street. Sitting on the floor of my room upstairs trying to get ready for the day. I was still having a tuff time waking up without him, but he was still close by and we were still working on staying together. I would scroll Facebook to take my mind off of sh!t and he posted this song on his page and said he'd never really much cared for this song because Cory sounded so whiny. But now that he'd learned the lyrics and the meaning of the song that it meant something to him. I knew at that moment what he was feeling. I talked to him about it that night and he said he really does still press my letters to his lips…. And that I should run away before he knows. Because he wouldn't be able to see me and not know that I'm his. So he'd torment me til I left town. This song still takes me back to so many thoughts and feelings that nobody will ever know. So much of who I am is lost in the lives of the people who never needed me around. It's hard to reinvent yourself, I don't want to. But how can I be her ever again without him.