Grateful for my life right now, even if it’s hard to believe! via /r/gratitude

My whole life I was taught to never be hopeful, never get excited, becuase life will always let you down. i’ve struggled with severe mental health issues since I was 19, but particularly the last 4-5 years have been hell. i’ve lost all the friends I ever knew, lost my car, multiple jobs, moved away from everything and the area i’ve known all my life, been incredibly poor, inpatient hospital stays outpatient programs so many meds, dependent on week and alcohol.

This past year, i’ve come so far. I want to take a moment to not only be grateful (which I never really did out loud, because I was always told life would take away anything you love/are grateful for), but to be openly proud of myself.

i’ve been at a really great job for a year now, got a promotion and a raise, consistently did therapy and trying to get back into things I love like journaling and writing every day. I signed a freaking lease and will be in my very own first apartment, completely 100% on my own, my own permanent space, and I did it all myself. I have an actual savings account and it actually has a decent amount in it, i’ve been going to the gym consistently and actually love it.

I got my medications handled and correct, by advocating for myself. A few years ago I thought by 24 i’d be either dead, or a still a lifeless lonely heavily medicated blob, rotting in my mom’s basement and quitting another dead end job. Now, I’ll be celebrating my 24th in my own space, i’m thinking of it as a bday gift to myself lol.

I’m so proud of me. i’m so grateful words can’t even express. I thank god above all else. 🌟