Grateful for the emotional growth past years via /r/gratitude

On monday 2th of June my brain burned out. My body and mind did the weird stressy things. And now I'm trying to be in recovery mode: relaxing, eating well, drink enough water, take care of myself and my home, exercise, sleep and repeat.

The past days my brain goes:

• "I not worthy…"
• "People will think less of me.."
• "I'm tired, I wanne die.."

I've been doing a lot of mindfulness and meditation past years, so my relationship with my thoughts and emotiona have changed. I'm not my thoughts and emotions.

The way I perceive my brain now is like this over dramatic muppet child version of myself and it makes me giggle and laugh now. It didn't some years ago. The puppet will relax once I'm relaxt… it is what it is at the moment.

I'm grateful I spend so many hours reading about the mind and emotions and practicing mindfulness and self refelection.

Why did I get into the burn out? I'm autistic and somehow developing that sense for my own battery status is very hard. But one thing is sure: no more coffee for me.. it's just bad in combination with hyperfocus.