Grateful I no longer feel the need to escape from my life via /r/gratitude

I already posted about something I was grateful for but as I’m journaling and reflecting on my dreams I realized how grateful I am that I no longer feel the need to escape my life. I used drugs and alcohol and self harm behaviors to escape the life that I convinced myself was Heaven for over 20 years. It true when they say you don’t what you got until it’s gone. In this case it was a good thing though. Feeling so grateful for so much this morning!!