Grateful my husband doesn’t pressure me for sex via /r/gratitude

I spent my entire life, from when I was 6 years old, being pressured for sex.

I was 6 when the first person introduced me to this pressure. That lasted until I was 12 or 13.

Then I met my ex when I was 14 and spent over 20 years with him. He wanted it daily in some way shape or form. He always complained to people that he never got it enough, even when I’d make sure that his pipes were cleaned every single day.

So ive spent most of my life with sex on my mind from the second I wake up. Not in a good way. In more of a “this will make me good enough to be loved” type of way.

I am grateful that my husband has stopped watching p0rn and abusing ED medication because it’s given me such peace. I no longer have to wake up and immediately think about sex. I can just let it happen naturally, no pressure, no stress, no feeling guilty when l didn’t satisfy him that day. It has changed my view of what intimacy really is and it’s nice.