I don’t want to be sad, so I’ll be grateful via /r/gratitude

Today was a co-worker's last day. Usually I am completely fine when co-workers move on, I can't explain why this one is hard. It's not like I know them as a person outside of work at all, really, but their presence was supportive and even soothing and we worked together well. I had silly visions of us working together for years & that by the time we were done that whole place would look and feel different. And it would be successful.

When I heard them telling our bosses they'd found another job, it was like the floor fell out from under me. I had to focus on breathing to not throw up. 😂 And then I mentally blocked it out until I left work today. 😂 Now there's no avoiding it bc they're not coming back.

So I'm going to do my best to choose to be thankful. For their support and the way they balanced my anxious ass out when we did consults together. Their willingness to drive bc I always have to and I trusted them to do it. Their knowledge and mostly excellent work ethic. For asking me what movies I've been watching & listening to me babble like an idiot who doesn't actually talk to many people. I should've listened more. For their perspective that usually made me feel better. For the love & care they showed to all of us.

We will be okay, I guess, but we won't be the same by any stretch. Now I'm going to take a nap and hope the pit in my stomach goes away. Thanks for reading. 😊