I’m grateful for happiness and being alive via /r/gratitude

I’m grateful that I am happy and content with life even when school is hard. I’m grateful that I feel beautiful and have a stronger sense of self. I feel solid in myself. But in 2021, I was hospitalized for attempting to take my life for the second time. Well the second hospitalization. I was miserable, depressed, and was afraid I was doomed to depression forever. But I got through the storm with the help and support of clinicians and my sister, a few friends, and a will to live.

I saw the pain I caused others when I hurt myself. And it even pains me to know that I felt like I had to do so. I didn’t deserve that. So I’m grateful that I’m happy and alive. Enjoying life and taking care of myself. I’m not perfect, but I’m good enough. Sometimes, I fear I’ll fall back into those dark times.. but right now I just want to enjoy my content in life right now.