I’m grateful for my failed relationships because now I enjoy solitude. via /r/gratitude

I (49F) was married for almost 20 years after marrying at 20 yrs old and then no relationship worked out for me after that. At first I was really depressed about it, but over time I realize I enjoy my own company more than I've ever enjoyed a romantic relationship.

I'm realizing how beautiful life is and how just sitting in the present moment brings so much joy to my life. I'm able to look back on my relationships without as much blame and anger as I used to feel, and now I can see how much those relationships taught me about myself and the world. And I'm grateful for the experiences.

Most of all, I'm grateful that all these experiences led me to the self-love I have today. I didn't love myself all that much when I was married and seeking romantic relationships. I'm not opposed to romantic relationships, but I'm grateful that I've experienced self-love in solitude because it's taught me how healthy love is supposed to feel.