Im grateful now and I will try to stay grateful via /r/gratitude

Be grateful for what you have. Ive always been struggling with my self esteem, ambitions and other things in my life. Ive always felt that Im never enough, that I need to be better, that other people are so much more successful than I am. Throughout my life Ive have endured many failures but also some success, the failures tho have always weighted much harder on my mental health. Ive had a shitty alcoholic father and Ive always struggeled with my mental health. Ive never had a girlfriend, Im 28 approaching my thirties, still live at home and I wish someone would love me.

BUT in the last months Ive learned to be more grateful about my life, Ive grown a lot mentally since Ive been travelling to the warzone in Ukraine a couple times to meet a friend. I learned to appreaciate what I have. I have a job that pays well as an electrician and technician, I have a loving mother, I look young despite being already 28, I dont have to die soon, Im somewhat healthy, I speak 4 languages fluently, I have a car, I have decent savings, I am able to enjoy my hobbies of wandering nature and going on trails. I wont let the negative things bring me down WHEN I have so much. I WILL allow myself to cry and show emotions, even tho Ive been trained not to. I WILL be grateful now and I WILL go out from my comfort zone and meet new people, try new things and maybe I get some of the bad things fixed. I dont want to lose hope in humanity and society and I want to carry out the message to people that we should ALL be more grateful for having somewhat won the birth lottery. Im gonna push my low self esteem more so that I become more confident, its the key to a more happy and fullfilling life for me I think. I will try to talk to people more to become more talkative and meet new friends and cut my old friends that have a bad influence on me. Living and aging is a PRIVILEGE.

I think Ive finally made sense of this quote from ancient greece:

"A grateful mind is a great mind which eventually attracts to itself great things."
– Plato