Sometimes you gotta accept your fate via /r/gratitude

I’m am grateful that I accepted my fate after 10 years of running from diagnosis which was bipolar disorder, 10 years no one ever noticed it because of my obsession with gym and healthy alternatives

by the end of last year I got herniated disc in my neck and required surgery I skipped it because I know how stressful that would be on me and without meds it will be difficult for my body to function properly and kept working out on it 5 months ago I hit rock bottom I couldn’t walk or talk of how intense the pain was and it triggered it.

the funny thing it was the best thing that ever happened to me I became like a kid who was obsessed with aquarium went to the the beach grab some snails and few saltwater fish from shop with some corals and just looking at it made me sense peace kept on it till the whole world around me notice it why?

I started grinding my teeth while asleep and my jaw became hard to open when I was awake I talked with a voice filled with hurt and few months before that I went to dentist to fish my teeth root canal after 6 visits I thought he said it’s done but it wasn’t and my face became very sore in one side and went to different dentist and told me they didn’t finish your root canal here I lost function of my face as well and went to total isolation

at same time my family was not the most supportive due to some money problems and their problems started to pouring down on me and I break.
I took a loan and traveled solo for a month while at it I started taking meds again and i felt her love and healed me, now how can I repay her I spent all the loan and she begging me to come and I don’t have vacation days left, I still call her and sleep together I hope this will last forever but I know long distance relationship is not reliable but with her I think we can ❤️

Today all that stuff that’s happened went away with my hair 🤣 but it was an experience I should right a book on someday

The future is yours as long as u see your target 🎯