The best I can do is mutter it through gritted teeth via /r/gratitude

But I guess it's better than nothing right? So here goes.. I'm grateful to still have decent health and mental sanity after the torturous journey that I've been on for quite some time. I feel like I'm too old pushing 30 here to restart in life and find success but whatever.

Perhaps it's best to let that go although it's easier said than done. So there it is. I have an enormous amount of resentment and have spent alot of time very confused about everything but… I'm grateful that I still have the opportunity to eventually make things not fucking suck. I can't find happiness in the little things in life (unless I am where I want to be and who I want to be after achievements and money ) which won't happen for some time so I guess we just have to take it day by day.

I'm grateful that I still have the chance..somewhere deep in me is faith and love but it's outweighed by everything else right now. With that all being said, I still wouldn't object if God was to decide he wanted me to go home now..