When you state gratitude and that thing/situation/person disappear… via /r/gratitude

Have you experienced this in an overwhelming amount? I have for maybe a year now or longer now. Even the thought of being grateful and IMMEDIATELY it’s gone. I am unsure as to why I am being tested in such a manner. I am seriously ready to try some YouTube curse breaking ritual or some shit😅. If anybody has been through this and gotten the other side, please help. Any thoughts at all, please share.