Grateful to still want to be here via /r/gratitude

I couldn’t sleep last night, I was crying because I’m nervous about some health labs that I had to do today. I cried, I prayed, I cried again and prayed some more. I woke up today and I’ve cried some more but me crying is a sign that I’m still alive and feeling everything that needs to be felt. I also take it that I’m scared because I want to live, I have so much to live for. I’m not a mom yet, I haven’t been married yet and I haven’t visited Rome yet( childhood dream of mine). I want to live to get to do all those things.

I’m grateful that after everything that happened in 2024 and how it broke me, I still want to live. Life will continue to kick me in the ass, it always has but I’m learning to kick back.